maybe i need writing more than I have cared to acknowledge.
helps me gather my thoughts, so here it goes.
Im twenty three years old to the date, and I see people collapsing around i have known for
ten, nine years in self pity and overthinking and fear of judgement.
To the point they don't see what bollocks it is.
Ive recently realized, I mean I always have felt it, but I realized I dont give a shit about other peoples expectations of me. Like I mean, not at all.
Only person I can ever disappoint in my life is me, and it has always been that way, but only now I see it. There are beautiful human beings on this earth I care deeply for, and would do anything, but in the end its my feelings towards them and not what someones forced or told to believe.
when you enforce, its an entity feeding their truth to you.
You could even get so used to it you wouldnt even know, after a while you may even think its your truth too. I know. Ive done it. Ashamed to say it but for years I have.
Doing the same thing and expecting a different result is the definition of insanity.
its hard to brake habits, and this is honest truth.
ive found myself many times walking in circles overthinking and looking for whats wrong.
But we all deep inside know. No more.
NO more. leave it. no, no, listen! Leave it.
Because, guess what, it does not matter at all. Not then, not ever, it does if you let it.
your here now and you will have to live with yourself for the rest of your days love.
We all have the I in us.
I am the most profound and powerful force in this reality of universe.
I AM the WORLD I know, I AM GOD.
Not to take the stance of arrogance in any way, I guess im trying to say, ive found my voice within me, and i see no threat, no more from any outside influence, i no more get angry or even stressed, I seek justice and feel I am just to people, I want to help people and anything living, but now realize my infinity.
Im scared of nothing and noone can stop my energy no more.
Our eyes shape experience of this realm.
Saturday, 17 September 2016
Wednesday, 10 August 2016
The End Times
So then, I have a few
serious things to talk about that have been on my mind for fucking
years now, slowly this madness of our world has been rising and now
its got to the point I have to say something.
The end times are very near folks and let me tell you why.
Not sure if anyone here follows actual world events not just the watered down trickle shit on main stream media bollocks. People living all round the world im sure have been feeling, same as me that there is something wrong, but you just don't quite know what it is? Have you felt it?
People carelessly chasing invisible Pokemon GO and worrying about the next season of American Idol... Thinking about Miley Cyrus and her new fashion and all this perverted pop music since around 2006...
So, whats been happening I feel is distraction with one lie, to another lie to and other lie and so on...
Im pretty sure even the liars dont know when they are lying anymore and people believe everything, including our armies mainly NATO as the largest terrorist force in the world, we have invaded many countries since 911 and don't seem to stop, we have killed some great leaders, one being Muammar Mohammed Abu Minyar Gaddafi. He was a revolutionary that put in Space a satellite for all of Africa for independent radio communications of having to pay ridiculous amounts of money to Europe and America. Countries supplied. (*Countries: Algeria, Angola, Benin, Botswana, Burkina Faso, Burundi, Cameroon, Cape Verde, Central African Republic, Chad, Cyprus, Democratic Republic of the Congo, Djibouti, Egypt, Equatorial Guinea, Eritrea, Ethiopia, Gabon, Gambia, Ghana, Guinea, Guinea- Bissau, Jordan, Juan De Nova Island, Kenya, Kuwait, Lebanon, Lesotho, Madagascar, Malawi, Mali, Mauritania, Mauritius, Mayotte, Morocco, Mozambique, Namibia, Niger, Nigeria, Oman, Saudi Arabia, Senegal, Sierra Leone, South Africa (inc. Price Edwards Island), Turkey, United Arab Emirates, United Republic of Tanzania, Tunisia, Uganda, Zambia, Zimbabwe plus 12 nautical miles offshore these countries.)
Secondly, he set up several centralized banks for Africa including banks of investment for African business.
thirdly and most importantly, the fact he was planning to set up a system where he would only sell Libyan oil in gold and not the US Dollar... So if he got this in place he would have destroyed a large part of the economy of America. In conclusion our armies killed him for caring for the future of Africa.
Labelled a terrorist, and even The United Arab Nations did nothing about it, or even when Sadam Hussein was killed. Why is our military supporting this kind of madness?
Also, what the fuck is going on with all this politically correct and having to be so sensitive to everyone..
Now in America they have transgender toilets, and schools in Sweden where the young children are called not Him/Her but IT, because apparently it is sexist to refer to a person by their sex...
And people are believing this, this is absolutely and absurd, there are schools teaching preschool children, let me repeat that, PRE-School Children, toddlers about, gay relationships, pedophilia and incest.
What in the actual fuck has that got to do with anything a 5 year old cares about.
that age guys hang out with guys doing what guys do and girls hang around with girls doing what girls do because its natural, children don't care about sex or any relationship as suck till a lot later, and some twat weird cunt calling you it, telling little Emma its ok if you have sexual feelings towards Sarah is going to confuse the little mind all to much, as see this kind of educations system relating in serious damage for the future. Also, im sure you have heard gay marriage is legal now all over America.
Well done.. right, so actually when i first heard of this topic coming up in Latvia as a kid around 2005,
I generally thought its weird and fucked up, but however as time passed I grew used to the idea and was actually for it by the end.. but now what the result of this, obviously Its a heavily christian state and problems are there but it got SOCIALLY accepted, everyone has got this idea now that we are all so individual and special and our rights are everything and bla bla bla, now we have people in Germany and England after this saying that everyone should legalize Bestiality and Pedophilia, check it out if you don't believe me its actually fucking happening. How is this even in question? Some researches in high universities in England say its a fact... check this out.
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/comment/10948796/Paedophilia-is-natural-and-normal-for-males.html
The "telegraph" is reporting on this. This is insane.
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2352779/Bestiality-brothels-spreading-Germany-campaigner-claims-abusers-sex-animals-lifestyle-choice.html
This is "Daily mail"
Every day news now days..
And The fact a revolution rising in Turkey the size as it is is being simply almost ignored is beyond comprehension, half their government is military so these men being executed after peaceful protest is madness, and thousands arrested.
Genocide in Palestine seems to be happily ignored too, Israel And America and sadly NATO are all helping this while we are busy watching the new season of fucking whatever is on TV... that shit weird little Propaganda box that we love so much. feeding us daily with fear and lies.
Oh and haven't you heard, more great news, on the 1st of September NASA is shutting down the ISS live feed, wonder why? Guess the disclosure of the fact we obviously ain't alone is coming soon.
Now im not religious, but I do believe in the forces of Good and the forces of Evil, and right now I feel the evil gripping this world like never before, some mystical im sure. there are many, many facts about most American leadership being in Satanic cults and worshiping Demons, its described in many Occult books and also in Religious texts as to what kind of ceremony or prophecies they are fulfilling. and the tool they own that's serves well is Media, look how senseless and messed up the Music by mainstream is now? Films getting more violent and more messed up, a lot of negative a crippling things flowing and the way this evil works in MANIPULATION of thought process and it takes time, and that they got when you fucking own everything. Rothchilds being one popular example. seems people are being desensitized, and made to feel they are most important thing in the world,. LIE, WE are the most important thing, and we must look after each other and not fight like we are now, but im afraid its almost too late. thinking selfishly is basically being Satan and only manipulating the world around you to get what you want.
I wont live like that.
I wont even get into the history of mint control attempts and experiments by Nazis and US in the 40-50s, that went on, the worst is yet to come and obviously these techniques have worked and thank Tavistok institute of human relations for that. If you have time look into it.
http://educate-yourself.org/nwo/nwotavistockbestkeptsecret.shtml
Seems a lot of the things that have gone on in the past seem to be falling in place now, and its real, its happening and we all will see the end if we dont do something. I don't know what so im just spreading this knowledge of my frustration, there is so much to cover.
Another major problem in the world is Chemtrail spraying, research this if you can this is the first thing that must be stopped, weather manipulation is first and foremost very wrong and also completely against international law, and yet it is going on every day all over Europe and mainly America, used to warm up weather slow rainfall, and causes intense forest fires and unpredictable, extreme weather, small particles of Aluminum and Magnesium that you breather in and it causes many respiratory problems and you are breathing this shit.
FEMA camps in America, connected by railways, similar to Nazi concentration camps have been build and the white house have simply denied their existence, it is madness, barbed wire on the inside and coffins stacked miles high (plastic) near these railways... why?
Anyway I could go on and on about a lot of this kind of information, but the fact is the world is coming to a New Order and possibly end if we don't at least educate the world on what our governments or CULT are doing to the world, because without the masses complying this mess would never work, we are the real power and they are keeping most deaf, dumb and blind with,
ever growing sexual perversion and body mutation, television, bestiality, war, disease, extreme weather and so on, realize its all basically Satanic propaganda. maybe that's what
Bowie was trying to explain before his death too.
I would like you to, if you got this for to carefully observe the symbolism of this video, and what his message here is. Hes saying, pretty much what I am, I believe.
Click Link below:
David Bowie-Blackstar
Hope we make it past January 2017
Sorry for the rant.
One Love-
The end times are very near folks and let me tell you why.
Not sure if anyone here follows actual world events not just the watered down trickle shit on main stream media bollocks. People living all round the world im sure have been feeling, same as me that there is something wrong, but you just don't quite know what it is? Have you felt it?
People carelessly chasing invisible Pokemon GO and worrying about the next season of American Idol... Thinking about Miley Cyrus and her new fashion and all this perverted pop music since around 2006...
So, whats been happening I feel is distraction with one lie, to another lie to and other lie and so on...
Im pretty sure even the liars dont know when they are lying anymore and people believe everything, including our armies mainly NATO as the largest terrorist force in the world, we have invaded many countries since 911 and don't seem to stop, we have killed some great leaders, one being Muammar Mohammed Abu Minyar Gaddafi. He was a revolutionary that put in Space a satellite for all of Africa for independent radio communications of having to pay ridiculous amounts of money to Europe and America. Countries supplied. (*Countries: Algeria, Angola, Benin, Botswana, Burkina Faso, Burundi, Cameroon, Cape Verde, Central African Republic, Chad, Cyprus, Democratic Republic of the Congo, Djibouti, Egypt, Equatorial Guinea, Eritrea, Ethiopia, Gabon, Gambia, Ghana, Guinea, Guinea- Bissau, Jordan, Juan De Nova Island, Kenya, Kuwait, Lebanon, Lesotho, Madagascar, Malawi, Mali, Mauritania, Mauritius, Mayotte, Morocco, Mozambique, Namibia, Niger, Nigeria, Oman, Saudi Arabia, Senegal, Sierra Leone, South Africa (inc. Price Edwards Island), Turkey, United Arab Emirates, United Republic of Tanzania, Tunisia, Uganda, Zambia, Zimbabwe plus 12 nautical miles offshore these countries.)
Secondly, he set up several centralized banks for Africa including banks of investment for African business.
thirdly and most importantly, the fact he was planning to set up a system where he would only sell Libyan oil in gold and not the US Dollar... So if he got this in place he would have destroyed a large part of the economy of America. In conclusion our armies killed him for caring for the future of Africa.
Labelled a terrorist, and even The United Arab Nations did nothing about it, or even when Sadam Hussein was killed. Why is our military supporting this kind of madness?
Also, what the fuck is going on with all this politically correct and having to be so sensitive to everyone..
Now in America they have transgender toilets, and schools in Sweden where the young children are called not Him/Her but IT, because apparently it is sexist to refer to a person by their sex...
And people are believing this, this is absolutely and absurd, there are schools teaching preschool children, let me repeat that, PRE-School Children, toddlers about, gay relationships, pedophilia and incest.
What in the actual fuck has that got to do with anything a 5 year old cares about.
that age guys hang out with guys doing what guys do and girls hang around with girls doing what girls do because its natural, children don't care about sex or any relationship as suck till a lot later, and some twat weird cunt calling you it, telling little Emma its ok if you have sexual feelings towards Sarah is going to confuse the little mind all to much, as see this kind of educations system relating in serious damage for the future. Also, im sure you have heard gay marriage is legal now all over America.
Well done.. right, so actually when i first heard of this topic coming up in Latvia as a kid around 2005,
I generally thought its weird and fucked up, but however as time passed I grew used to the idea and was actually for it by the end.. but now what the result of this, obviously Its a heavily christian state and problems are there but it got SOCIALLY accepted, everyone has got this idea now that we are all so individual and special and our rights are everything and bla bla bla, now we have people in Germany and England after this saying that everyone should legalize Bestiality and Pedophilia, check it out if you don't believe me its actually fucking happening. How is this even in question? Some researches in high universities in England say its a fact... check this out.
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/comment/10948796/Paedophilia-is-natural-and-normal-for-males.html
The "telegraph" is reporting on this. This is insane.
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2352779/Bestiality-brothels-spreading-Germany-campaigner-claims-abusers-sex-animals-lifestyle-choice.html
This is "Daily mail"
Every day news now days..
And The fact a revolution rising in Turkey the size as it is is being simply almost ignored is beyond comprehension, half their government is military so these men being executed after peaceful protest is madness, and thousands arrested.
Genocide in Palestine seems to be happily ignored too, Israel And America and sadly NATO are all helping this while we are busy watching the new season of fucking whatever is on TV... that shit weird little Propaganda box that we love so much. feeding us daily with fear and lies.
Oh and haven't you heard, more great news, on the 1st of September NASA is shutting down the ISS live feed, wonder why? Guess the disclosure of the fact we obviously ain't alone is coming soon.
Now im not religious, but I do believe in the forces of Good and the forces of Evil, and right now I feel the evil gripping this world like never before, some mystical im sure. there are many, many facts about most American leadership being in Satanic cults and worshiping Demons, its described in many Occult books and also in Religious texts as to what kind of ceremony or prophecies they are fulfilling. and the tool they own that's serves well is Media, look how senseless and messed up the Music by mainstream is now? Films getting more violent and more messed up, a lot of negative a crippling things flowing and the way this evil works in MANIPULATION of thought process and it takes time, and that they got when you fucking own everything. Rothchilds being one popular example. seems people are being desensitized, and made to feel they are most important thing in the world,. LIE, WE are the most important thing, and we must look after each other and not fight like we are now, but im afraid its almost too late. thinking selfishly is basically being Satan and only manipulating the world around you to get what you want.
I wont live like that.
I wont even get into the history of mint control attempts and experiments by Nazis and US in the 40-50s, that went on, the worst is yet to come and obviously these techniques have worked and thank Tavistok institute of human relations for that. If you have time look into it.
http://educate-yourself.org/nwo/nwotavistockbestkeptsecret.shtml
Seems a lot of the things that have gone on in the past seem to be falling in place now, and its real, its happening and we all will see the end if we dont do something. I don't know what so im just spreading this knowledge of my frustration, there is so much to cover.
Another major problem in the world is Chemtrail spraying, research this if you can this is the first thing that must be stopped, weather manipulation is first and foremost very wrong and also completely against international law, and yet it is going on every day all over Europe and mainly America, used to warm up weather slow rainfall, and causes intense forest fires and unpredictable, extreme weather, small particles of Aluminum and Magnesium that you breather in and it causes many respiratory problems and you are breathing this shit.
FEMA camps in America, connected by railways, similar to Nazi concentration camps have been build and the white house have simply denied their existence, it is madness, barbed wire on the inside and coffins stacked miles high (plastic) near these railways... why?
Anyway I could go on and on about a lot of this kind of information, but the fact is the world is coming to a New Order and possibly end if we don't at least educate the world on what our governments or CULT are doing to the world, because without the masses complying this mess would never work, we are the real power and they are keeping most deaf, dumb and blind with,
ever growing sexual perversion and body mutation, television, bestiality, war, disease, extreme weather and so on, realize its all basically Satanic propaganda. maybe that's what
Bowie was trying to explain before his death too.
I would like you to, if you got this for to carefully observe the symbolism of this video, and what his message here is. Hes saying, pretty much what I am, I believe.
Click Link below:
David Bowie-Blackstar
Hope we make it past January 2017
Sorry for the rant.
One Love-
Wednesday, 28 October 2015
Infamous Colours - My Dimiters
I really want the old times when I didnt care i had shit rhymes, i really want to love myself and forget the pain ive dealt and find something new to be felt, i truly want to be sentenced in prison to life and every six months send you a kite, telling the other inmates how my soul lost sight, i really want to share stories of love, how i caught the best but let it go like a dove and now live forever in sorrow, alone swallow, i really want hopelessly cheap food sit in a dark room repeatedly playing in bloom, i really want to play chess and live with stress i want to stay a mess and die never the less, i really want to live and die out of hopelesness helplesly in love with the heartless, something red thats beating not breathing i really want an ounce of happiness American obissedness and general spitefullness drugs and spirits and homelessness, i really want to die in a phone box and be found by an old woman with a toy box have fundamental orthodox beliefs and curse god till i see new beginings. I really want freedom to be born of shame and always take the blame, carry you to the end of the world cause you know we are one and the same i want to be a game i really want siffilis and aids so id open my eyes to peoples feeble fuck games and drown my self in Themes, I really want a new lighter so i could spark your soul and make it lighter, brighter, warmer, higher I really want a tape worm so im not alone and someone needs me to stay alive and strive to live well before hell i really want to live and die out of hopelesness, helplessly in love with the heartless, then slit my wrists.
Thursday, 24 September 2015
Infamous Colours - Lana
If i dont sease it tonight I might lose it forever
My mind now is not that bright I dont feel so clever
My chest seems warm yet worried
No safety vest, fell as if im being burried
I know your leaving soon, but the moon tonight is full
I now am acting like a fool and my mind is dull
This world has left you cold, your soul so clever and old
Its fortold, our story will be bold, your my coal that cant be sold
From you theres pure honesty, an alure of beauty
From me its pure modesty and I asure you security
If I dont sease it tonight I might lose it forever
What am I going to do when my light becomes distant?
What am I to do when I fell my heart becoming vacant?
I need to sease that feeling, I need to sease my higher being
I must set my mind at ease dont leave please
But I know the world is a large space
There is time and place for everyone in this race
I have faith in your eyes noone can erase
Its not too late, no goodbyes, one love in this case
If I dont sease it tonight I might lose it forever
I need to see right and ask if we could be together
Do you remember when we met in early September?
Just come closer, be my world, be my lover
Or be whoever you want to be you see
It dosent matter where you are on this earth
Your memory will live with me till im dead in the dirt
Theres no sorrow I know I will see you tomorrow
Or maybe in ten years or more, its you I adore
I hope you have a good life and as long as thats the case there will always be light
I know your might, and trust your sight
And I will still fight, goodnight I know we both will wake up to a morning bright.
If I dont sease it tonight I might lose it forever
What am I going to do when my light becomes distant?
What am I to do when I fell my heart becoming vacant?
I need to sease that feeling, I need to sease my higher being
And remember theres always a new begining
Theres always a new begining.
Māris Kupruks.
25/09/2015
Tuesday, 21 January 2014
Sunny Afternoon
What can I do when your bored
or tho its you I always adored and still do
its true
What do we do with our spare time
I used to write down a rhyme
from time to time
I see your smile and remember why
almost want to cry
tears of joy
I know, im not a rough boy
Lets get lost at my cost
trust that, im not back
I never left just checked where to move
and thought up a new groove
and boom im on that Mf Doom/Slug shit
Thick and fulfilled like me when im with you
leave your gay ass crew and join the 32
Still white laces in my shoe Z
KK Wha!
They say this and they say that
But They dont know!
I know you try to keep it together
for now and forever
but its hard when you dont know where you going
just have to keep moving
Forwards and press onwards
For better tomorrow and leave behind all the sorrow
But you cant forget so check this
They say life is what happens while your busy making other plans
So put down the shitty alcohol filled cans
Feel the drums and gentle guitar strums
with smooth flow that just grow
on you, creeps up in you
Do whatcha' do Im only trying to stay true
Dont feel blue just let the joy in
Completely, fully, its a waste for you to be bitter
Because you can offer so much happiness to spread all over
So forgive me for my short comings and docile ignorance
I see such divine and absolute confused innocence
Within your eyes, sending you smiles
Cought them?
We are wreckless and often more so sleepless
I miss you, want hold you and kiss you better,
Hey remember that time at mine spending hours
just there lying on my bed happy, those weren't no super powers
it was real, ok yea I get the deal we were high oh my I feel that way
every day, whenever your around im so proud to ever have known you
Thank you, I love you and stay true to yourself
you dont need any help, you have all the answers but too
many questions, and life lessons to learn,
but that goes for all of us and we must press on
and hope for a brighter day,
say what you say im here today
Still alive, this world is mine And I still have your smile
and can kick a funky rhyme for your being so kind
See you soon and enjoy this sunny afternoon.
LOVE YOUR LIFE.- - - - - >
I love mine even tho it gets hard,
that goes for everyone of us,
on the planet and beyond.
M.Kupruks 22/01/2014
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Tuesday, 2 July 2013
She Knows Exactly What Shes Worth To Me
Got back from Amsterdam, The Netherlands is something else.
I gathered my thoughts and sadly only now realise how foolish some of my actions have been lately. I ruined the best thing I have had, also I'm working in a place I despise, fun times...
Was under my rent this month, but it will be ok. I am back on track and feel I just need to keep rolling onwards, and hope to patch my life back up, it's funny how you don't see how shit, or good things are until you step back and look in. I suppose if you spend six days in a foreign country by just arriving for the first time knowing nothing and not having a place to stay and with minimal funds you have a lot of time to think & walk.. A lot of walking.. My thought was how can you get lost if there is no place to go? It was beautiful.
Happy Birthday To my Brother and Sister actually.. that's a few days back now but anyways yea... That's how fucked up I am ha ha.
Ya'll know me tho. I will be fine I always am. : ]
This photo was made for you. (X)
Pine woods (Harrogate)
I gathered my thoughts and sadly only now realise how foolish some of my actions have been lately. I ruined the best thing I have had, also I'm working in a place I despise, fun times...
Was under my rent this month, but it will be ok. I am back on track and feel I just need to keep rolling onwards, and hope to patch my life back up, it's funny how you don't see how shit, or good things are until you step back and look in. I suppose if you spend six days in a foreign country by just arriving for the first time knowing nothing and not having a place to stay and with minimal funds you have a lot of time to think & walk.. A lot of walking.. My thought was how can you get lost if there is no place to go? It was beautiful.
Happy Birthday To my Brother and Sister actually.. that's a few days back now but anyways yea... That's how fucked up I am ha ha.
Ya'll know me tho. I will be fine I always am. : ]
This photo was made for you. (X)
Pine woods (Harrogate)
MK
Thursday, 23 May 2013
Infamous colours- just honest
Shits been weird in my world so.
There is no way to start this so I just will ok?
When your not around I miss you, I try to give you a clue but not sure how start acting ridicilous, mysterious even to me, painted up your street in hopes you notice it, gues crying for attention hungry for some higher dimension when I leave you your still always on my mind so kind at work and any walk I take any time on my own I have become your clown and Shit I dont know how it happened I tripped and slipped, collapsed under your aura and beautiful honest persona im so sorry but I couldnt help it,
it just took me, you see its my first time in twenty years of my life of laughs and tears ive ever felt this I got overwhealmed, couldnt help it.
Laced down a track before this, but was just piss a mess all over the place dont want to chase you or nothing like that its not me you see if im writing this im sure you will read this, but please dont overreact not sure how to act this out but I know you do So all I will say is your the best person I know, accidentally imagine us travelling and missioning through this earth and thats the truth I known you for a while I love your smile and that makes my day spending my little spare time with you regenerates and makes me happy go lucky me Se I stalled Coz of Ellitot and what you two got but its killing me so least I can do Is honestly let you know either way I promise to always be there everyday and I hope we still can be friends after all these bends, but im sure you know we could grow and blow you make me feel invulerable and in no trouble if you ever read this its Coz you have to otherwise I will pull myself down your clown but I hope your ok you know how they say it dosent take all day to recognise sunshine
and please whatever you do dont cry.
Not sure where it goes from here, but I had to let you know.
sorry.
There is no way to start this so I just will ok?
When your not around I miss you, I try to give you a clue but not sure how start acting ridicilous, mysterious even to me, painted up your street in hopes you notice it, gues crying for attention hungry for some higher dimension when I leave you your still always on my mind so kind at work and any walk I take any time on my own I have become your clown and Shit I dont know how it happened I tripped and slipped, collapsed under your aura and beautiful honest persona im so sorry but I couldnt help it,
it just took me, you see its my first time in twenty years of my life of laughs and tears ive ever felt this I got overwhealmed, couldnt help it.
Laced down a track before this, but was just piss a mess all over the place dont want to chase you or nothing like that its not me you see if im writing this im sure you will read this, but please dont overreact not sure how to act this out but I know you do So all I will say is your the best person I know, accidentally imagine us travelling and missioning through this earth and thats the truth I known you for a while I love your smile and that makes my day spending my little spare time with you regenerates and makes me happy go lucky me Se I stalled Coz of Ellitot and what you two got but its killing me so least I can do Is honestly let you know either way I promise to always be there everyday and I hope we still can be friends after all these bends, but im sure you know we could grow and blow you make me feel invulerable and in no trouble if you ever read this its Coz you have to otherwise I will pull myself down your clown but I hope your ok you know how they say it dosent take all day to recognise sunshine
and please whatever you do dont cry.
Not sure where it goes from here, but I had to let you know.
sorry.
Wednesday, 22 May 2013
Infamous Colours-Pidgeon & The Dove
10am working hard for that gold
My soul shaping yet already sold
what is my goal grow and turn to mould?
Walking down that road now is peace to me
you see, beacause I know theres something real
and beautiful at the end that I can comprihend
something I cant brake or bend
just love, your not the pidgeon, your the dove
I dont know how
I Cant be loud
But I dont want to hurt whats real
and therefor I feel I would tear myself apart
either way If I find the courage to say what I
think I have to say today or maybe tomorow
maybe somehow, but for now its silence and
bird ambience because all we need is a little patience
Im going insane I just want to hop onthe early morning train
to go anywhere but afterall I cant escape but just stand tall
because its always here and there its everywhere
thats the moment when you finally realise take off your discuise
stop living in your own created maze and see everything is yourself
and only you can help yourself, my cards have been dealt
and this is something I have never fealt
Im Scarred, dead and burried, not suicidal or depressed just worried
But its ok.
Its like im going to get my heart back
but the track to it is dark I must be smart
to have a chance to regain my mortality and understanding why?
And I keep coming up with the same answer everytime, I will
tell you some time I promise
What you want and what I can give
I just want to fucking live
I dont know how.
I dont know how.
to say
today tomorow,
But im sure the Dove knows
As it shines and glows and blows my mind so mysterious and kind
And im sure noone feels the way I do about you
Cant help to think we are the same just came from somewhere else
I guess evolved differently, esspecially up to now
the pidgeon and The Dove
So I will keep going down that road till you fly to me
because you see I cant risk blocking your sun
but defend you with an iron fist and I know
I will See You Soon
And maybe never reach the end of the road, because its noon soon
and work calls, But I promise with all my heart I will March
down the road everyday religiously just to make sure youre safe
And If the time is right I might pull you into my world
that used to be so cold, its taken so long and I see it now
and cant let go, and everything racional says I shouldnt and
everything irrationl screams fullfill YOUR dreams
But I cant hurt anyone around, like they say Architecture
is frozen music I wont lose it its just the way I am
I now am the change I want this world to be you see
sometimes that means to wait and let fate play out
no doubt all this needs is patience and now finally silence
till the next time, because anything worth its value is worth fighting for
that you cant ignore so instead of feeling sorry for myself I will take what I have felt
and know its positive and gives me clearer perspective of life and in the end
its my pleasure to know you at all, im on call
See You Soon.
MK.
Monday, 18 February 2013
Train Of Thought
Infinite Potential?
Any imaginated/Pictured (IDEA) comes from a THOUGHT.
Negative thoughts affected by external factors cause negative emotions from you and
people you face. BUT, Realising that if you are happy and ignoring routine stress, HAVING A PLAN & therefor sticking to it MEANS, you can achieve ANYTHING.
So things you need are Confidence, Peace, Happiness & Dicipline.
Rearanging of your entire thought process you have grown up with.
Its Hard but its possible to see. I want to be a success in MY LIFE for me as a person,
failure is not an option I must succeed, I dont want to be the wasted potential, I want to be a good person, I want to help others I want to live and be happy about my self, but right now, I feel like im stuck in the mud, dead end job with lame pay...
High Stress and all the rest, Negative people etc.
I need to leave somewhere ON MY OWN and reevaluate whats important & set a game plan and STICK TO IT. But at first I must fix my head into thinking right and realising my own power, THAT GOES FOR ALL OF US. Idea of my life, everything I will do Or have done has once been a thougth that has been made from ME so I have infinite potenitial to become what I want to be If I have a plan, my hopes and dreams are here but not yet seen, its next to me, you, all of us.
Draw a circle around once someone is making you feel irritated and look from the other side.
World Is Yours.
Any imaginated/Pictured (IDEA) comes from a THOUGHT.
Negative thoughts affected by external factors cause negative emotions from you and
people you face. BUT, Realising that if you are happy and ignoring routine stress, HAVING A PLAN & therefor sticking to it MEANS, you can achieve ANYTHING.
So things you need are Confidence, Peace, Happiness & Dicipline.
Rearanging of your entire thought process you have grown up with.
Its Hard but its possible to see. I want to be a success in MY LIFE for me as a person,
failure is not an option I must succeed, I dont want to be the wasted potential, I want to be a good person, I want to help others I want to live and be happy about my self, but right now, I feel like im stuck in the mud, dead end job with lame pay...
High Stress and all the rest, Negative people etc.
I need to leave somewhere ON MY OWN and reevaluate whats important & set a game plan and STICK TO IT. But at first I must fix my head into thinking right and realising my own power, THAT GOES FOR ALL OF US. Idea of my life, everything I will do Or have done has once been a thougth that has been made from ME so I have infinite potenitial to become what I want to be If I have a plan, my hopes and dreams are here but not yet seen, its next to me, you, all of us.
Draw a circle around once someone is making you feel irritated and look from the other side.
World Is Yours.
Tuesday, 29 January 2013
Seed
Tired of Sleep, I wake up & want to brake out, go somewhere do something not just slave awaymy life working for this bullshit system, I want to travel, but cant afford it, should take the trip like mysister did ha ha...But im a dude so that would be a bit harder...However I could find a girl that would love to tag along im sure :]
I will be 20 in like two months...fuck, no more teenage years.
Alot has happened I guess, time goes on and on.
I've seen a few awesome bands play & have been to some sick partys, plus I have worked in quite a few kitchens so far, I have moved out of home and have my own flat...its like I have slipped into real life without noticeing...
I always thought its some crazy dramatic step, but it just wasnt...ha ha
here I am.
For my 20th planning a trip for a week to Berlin, should be cool, cheapest tickets I found were 135 return :]
However im buying them on 15th of February so hopefully they will be cheaper or about the same. I guess im just bored, tired, feel like im wasting my time and I aint doing what I should be right now, but I DONT KNOW...I dont know what it is. Ps. I have dreads again...weird short and spiky for now xD
give it 2 years they'll be a'ight. :]
Anyways nothing much more to say, till next time stay safe and love life.
I do, just trying to find the way, arent we all?
I will be 20 in like two months...fuck, no more teenage years.
Alot has happened I guess, time goes on and on.
I've seen a few awesome bands play & have been to some sick partys, plus I have worked in quite a few kitchens so far, I have moved out of home and have my own flat...its like I have slipped into real life without noticeing...
I always thought its some crazy dramatic step, but it just wasnt...ha ha
here I am.
For my 20th planning a trip for a week to Berlin, should be cool, cheapest tickets I found were 135 return :]
However im buying them on 15th of February so hopefully they will be cheaper or about the same. I guess im just bored, tired, feel like im wasting my time and I aint doing what I should be right now, but I DONT KNOW...I dont know what it is. Ps. I have dreads again...weird short and spiky for now xD
give it 2 years they'll be a'ight. :]
Anyways nothing much more to say, till next time stay safe and love life.
I do, just trying to find the way, arent we all?
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