I Am

maybe i need writing more than I have cared to acknowledge.
helps me gather my thoughts, so here it goes.
Im twenty three years old to the date, and I see people collapsing around i have known for
ten, nine years in self pity and overthinking and fear of judgement.
To the point they don't see what bollocks it is.
Ive recently realized, I mean I always have felt it, but I realized I dont give a shit about other peoples expectations of me. Like I mean, not at all.
Only person I can ever disappoint in my life is me, and it has always been that way, but only now I see it. There are beautiful human beings on this earth I care deeply for, and would do anything, but in the end its my feelings towards them and not what someones forced or told to believe.
when you enforce, its an entity feeding their truth to you.
You could even get so used to it you wouldnt even know, after a while you may even think its your truth too. I know. Ive done it. Ashamed to say it but for years I have.
Doing the same thing and expecting a different result is the definition of insanity.
its hard to brake habits, and this is honest truth.
ive found myself many times walking in circles overthinking and looking for whats wrong.
But we all deep inside know. No more.
NO more. leave it. no, no, listen! Leave it.
Because, guess what, it does not matter at all. Not then, not ever, it does if you let it.
your here now and you will have to live with yourself for the rest of your days love.
We all have the I in us.
I am the most profound and powerful force in this reality of universe.
I AM the WORLD I know, I AM GOD.
Not to take the stance of arrogance in any way, I guess im trying to say, ive found my voice within me, and i see no threat, no more from any outside influence, i no more get angry or even stressed, I seek justice and feel I am just to people, I want to help people and anything living, but now realize my infinity.

Im scared of nothing and noone can stop my energy no more.
Our eyes shape experience of this realm.