My gift to you

Today is a gift
Dont take it too swift
My life is divine
I feel the tingling down my spine
But I know tomorrows gonna be just fine

Or tho sometimes I feel myself dying
Deep inside crying
Had a thought to stop smoking
All this toking on weed
The devil has planted his evil seed
Cant seem to breathe
I start to bleed inside
But apart from that my life is sublime
It's been a while since I committed a crime
But it's too late I have lost my mind
Like the guys from "Last of the summer vine"

Today is a gift
Dont take it too swift
My life is divine
I feel the tingling down my spine
But I feel tomorrows gonna be just fine

What is left in this world for me?
I feel like going on a killing spree
Chop down every single tree for the hell of it
But wait a minute!
I hear a voice inside my head
I can tell you how your life should be lead
Follow the path of God
Dont listen to "Lench Mob"
And sometimes you shall get lost
But never fear, You will get across
The river of existence for instance
Once it's done if you dont show resistance
You will see in distance
Safe hands returning you to
the real safe lands

Today is a gift
Dont take it too swift
My life is divine
I feel the tingling down my spine
But I feel tomorrows gonna be just fine

Māris Kupruks

       My Gift To You

Insane, hell the repetition

It's raining, raining heavily the ink is flooding on the page...

sitting on the bench in Ainderby steeple.

Some of you may understand this, some may not. Read slowly.

Felling, feeling of not understanding... looking but not seeing, living, but not really.

Feels like I have done this before but no like Dejavuu...different, kind'a evil.

Look and something see the coulour, but it's dead. Am I insane?

Rooms seem framed (Frame Vision/Choppy Vision) Feeling of emptiness's and no purpose.

Shooting thoughts, cant escape, cant live, cant feel. only fear of something possibly the

emptiness. Who is Maris? Sometimes rarely, but this happens when you just have to fight for your mind, keep your sanity. Is this world real? Or is our life just a mistake, freakness of nature YOU DONT EXIST!

Or maybe I DONT EXIST maybe it's just you and im telling you that you are alone everything you see, feel, do is just and illusion you are just something that shouldnt be in darkness and no purpose crated this illusion to survive because you CANT DIE, hell. Repetition of things you cant escape! Because there is noplace to go. Suddenly find yourself doing the same things accidentally, maybe trippin schisofrenia. But how could that be real if NOTHING exists? (Just a thought) It's thundering now...but there must be something out there some people that will understand what im talking about there is the best in the worst of us and the worst in the best of us and were perfect in the middle. this world is the best in the worst or maybe again this dosent exist, is there any certainty in anything? what's the point of analysing if it's all created by you?

Who can save you? if im not real or who can save me if im not real? NOONE because there is NOTHING, EMPTYNESS, LONELYNESS and ETERNAL LIFE OF LIES and SUFFERING in you own little twisten, sick hell you created and posibally deserve. A prissoner in a fake world.

But better no think about that.

Māris Kupruks...if that is me.

13/09/2010

Just a theory of mine.

Circumstance (Gangs-LV) pt 2

You are born, grow up let's say you're 13, you live in tha hood.
You must be hard, act insensitive, stay protective and always alert for danger.
Because of the hood there will be drugs, gangs and violence.
So since you were born you have no chance because you cant escape tha gangs and tha dope plus beatin the shit out of each other...You show a weakness and you will be beaten by everyone else in tha hood,
if you live there you must represent it even if you don't want to.
You get older and start committing crimes, all kinds. You're gonna say Fuck school!
 Because you are actually in love with the streets you grew up in. You actually become hostile, alert and insensitive, you don't have to try anymore. The duty is to protect your streets and mark the teritory by graffiti.
If someone from another hood is in yours...big trouble.
No one gives a fuck about another dickhead just for your gang broth'a.
A former friend of mine was always straped, ended up caping this guy he always was the neighbourhood terror, but he was our pride, now doing 25 to life. Now the only question left is I wonder maybe if the hood didnt take us under? Nomather what protect you flag and that's what he did and im proud, but I always wonder was it worth it? Lucky for me I escaped the hood life few years ago. I was mesmerised ask anyone who knows me.
Respect out there to my bro'thas. This text is just a reality check of a gang mentality.
I must repeat, maybe if the hood didn't take us under?

M.Kupruks
07/09/2010

Time

    60's after war, in my opinion was a time of recovery, at last replacing the

dull brown, gray and black with red, green and yellow throw colours everywhere.

Starting a new world! Mini skirts, bubble cars and drugs xD...

war came upon us...All the hard work just destroyed.

Cities like London, Cardiff, Manchester, Sheffield flattened to ground by bombs.

    70's 80's revolution, hippies appear, all against war and system only people brave enough to say democracy doesn't work for shit. They tried to keep the world from craving money and will to own. You cant own anything!

Especially land. Than America starts a massive war, twin towers

have fallen, hitting America where it hurts most.

  Are we the 21'century generation in the time of war? or recovery? Has there ever in the time of human kind been a time of peace on the world?

Looking back did first world war do anything good for this world or anyone? No, well maybe a few people and still only for a short period of time.

Same with the second world war. So really just for one persons short term pleasure hundred's of thousand's men and woman died.

Are we all so selfish and dumb? No, so why people like that rule upon us? Why do we listen? Patriotism? Will to protect your fatherland, the pride?

Where did all the good people go? It's true we need, WE MUST protect our country, our homeland nomather where you are from and who you are, but only for the right reasons! We have given what we have to give to get our damn dollar bill,and noone has the right to take it of you! Remember you are the decision maker you are this world, but

only together we can be the future.

Māris K.

5/09/2010

Why To Pretend?

Always when two people are building a relationship under

certain pressure they keep them selves in distance or tho it's

plain to see for everyone else around them what's going on.

So you actually aren't hiding anything from anyone.

The weirdest thing is the female involved thinks she is doing it 

for the better deed, but actually she is just causing pain to the 

other person, causing him to be almost depressed and 100%

reserved, it's impossible for him to relax. It's similar to the other

side, accept as I said she believes that's all in the name of something

greater, to prevent the pain of others.

This is not about me! But a recently good friend. I hate to see any

of my friends in a state like that. I gave him some advice, told him

to step up and end the pain of his and hers by a simple action,

so he did. But it was hard to convince him cause he has started to

believe that this relationship is impossible for some unknown reason to him.

But if he says to me that he cant live without her, he cant go a day without

seeing her and just cant stop thinking about her, I believe you have answered

your own question. Now the whole point of me telling you this is...

Sometimes there is no point to protect others from the inevitable 

and if you choose to do so, why? 

To destroy yourself and let the effects of that decision reflect upon

the rest of your life like me? I did it and I think it helped me to grow

as a person. But if you choose to do so you are a fool!

There always is light at the end of the tunnel.

Now I will put out a cigarette on this page, and please think about this 

a minute or two.

Māris. K.

03/09/2010