Infamous colours- just honest

Shits been weird in my world so.
There is no way to start this so I just will ok?
When your not around I miss you, I try to give you a clue but not sure how start acting ridicilous, mysterious even to me, painted up your street in hopes you notice it, gues crying for attention hungry for some higher dimension when I leave you your still always on my mind so kind at work and any walk I take any time on my own I have become your clown and Shit I dont know how it happened I tripped and slipped, collapsed under your aura and beautiful honest persona im so sorry but I couldnt help it,
it just took me, you see its my first time in twenty years of my life of laughs and tears ive ever felt this I got overwhealmed, couldnt help it.
Laced down a track before this, but was just piss a mess all over the place dont want to chase you or nothing like that its not me you see if im writing this im sure you will read this, but please dont overreact not sure how to act this out but I know you do So all I will say is your the best person I know, accidentally imagine us travelling and missioning through this earth and thats the truth I known you for a while I love your smile and that makes my day spending my little spare time with you regenerates and makes me happy go lucky me Se I stalled Coz of Ellitot and what you two got but its killing me so least I can do Is honestly let you know either way I promise to always be there everyday and I hope we still can be friends after all these bends, but im sure you know we could grow and blow you make me feel invulerable and in no trouble if you ever read this its Coz you have to otherwise I will pull myself down your clown but I hope your ok you know how they say it dosent take all day to recognise sunshine
and please whatever you do dont cry.
Not sure where it goes from here, but I had to let you know.
sorry.

Infamous Colours-Pidgeon & The Dove

5am walking down that same road
10am working hard for that gold
My soul shaping yet already sold
what is my goal grow and turn to mould?
Walking down that road now is peace to me
you see, beacause I know theres something real
and beautiful at the end that I can comprihend
something I cant brake or bend
just love, your not the pidgeon, your the dove
I dont know how
I Cant be loud
But I dont want to hurt whats real
and therefor I feel I would tear myself apart
either way If I find the courage to say what I
think I have to say today or maybe tomorow
maybe somehow, but for now its silence and
bird ambience because all we need is a little patience
Im going insane I just want to hop onthe early morning train
to go anywhere but afterall I cant escape but just stand tall
because its always here and there its everywhere
thats the moment when you finally realise take off your discuise
stop living in your own created maze and see everything is yourself
and only you can help yourself, my cards have been dealt
and this is something I have never fealt
Im Scarred, dead and burried, not suicidal or depressed just worried
But its ok.
Its like im going to get my heart back
but the track to it is dark I must be smart
to have a chance to regain my mortality and understanding why?
And I keep coming up with the same answer everytime, I will
tell you some time I promise
What you want and what I can give
I just want to fucking live
I dont know how.
I dont know how.
to say
today tomorow,
But im sure the Dove knows
As it shines and glows and blows my mind so mysterious and kind
And im sure noone feels the way I do about you
Cant help to think we are the same just came from somewhere else
I guess evolved differently, esspecially up to now
the pidgeon and The Dove
So I will keep going down that road till you fly to me
because you see I cant risk blocking your sun
but defend you with an iron fist and I know
I will See You Soon
And maybe never reach the end of the road, because its noon soon
and work calls, But I promise with all my heart I will March
down the road everyday religiously just to make sure youre safe
And If the time is right I might pull you into my world
that used to be so cold, its taken so long and I see it now
and cant let go, and everything racional says I shouldnt and
everything irrationl screams fullfill YOUR dreams
But I cant hurt anyone around, like they say Architecture
is frozen music I wont lose it its just the way I am
I now am the change I want this world to be you see
sometimes that means to wait and let fate play out
no doubt all this needs is patience and now finally silence
till the next time, because anything worth its value is worth fighting for
that you cant ignore so instead of feeling sorry for myself I will take what I have felt
and know its positive and gives me clearer perspective of life and in the end
its my pleasure to know you at all, im on call
See You Soon.

MK.