Smile for me, please.

Shit dont make sense, secrets cold killas in the street,

desensitized fuckers. People and families falling apart,

losing purpose of life in general. children seeing shit too

early violence etc. Grow up fucked up, if Lucky they might

get saved by music or the opposite. why man? why? wtf?
I see crack head mothers razing their babies in shit holes,
fools smoking weed in a house with small kids in it.
I cant see what im writing because im crying...
What chance do we stand? As I witness this they dont understand wy am I crying... It's because of all the evil, too much evil,grief unnecessary pain. We are watchin our own end like we dont believe in god! What is it we all fear? So im sayin I dont need this! Fuck this! But I shall remember you! 15 years old and pregnant girls walk among us, is that normal? wtf Trade places what would you do if it was you? chased by three guys and raped. And I have nothing to say. Why is it like this? Reflections in the mirror I see myself and ask who do you believe in? But again there always will be times in life
when it's gonna be hard to smile, but where ever you go, through all the pain you have to keep your sense of humor.
Cmo'n I have got to smile for myself now and stop the tears,
I dont even remember what I wrote... Just remember me and these words
when you are in some shit, but I still remain hopeful for today, I must.
I see now.
08/10/2010
M.Kupruks.  Written in a bus stop 01:16

Answer's to my own question's

Lately my life has been a mess, cant seem to understand where am I heading,

kind'a messed up inside, lots of thought's have been rushing through a torrent

of appreciation, appreciation of life. But still my life is a snapped necklace,

you can always fix it, but always a beed will be missing, so you can lose it all

if you keep snapping it. Kid'a like a persons life. I try to do what is right,

but I dont see anything in return. But maybe we dont need anything in return,

that makes it selfish, it cant be good if you are doing it for your self, especially if you have to take something from someone else.

but I believe I now what I have been missing. It's a "someone", alot of people in relationships complain about each others actions and little problems in each other, but the most ridicilous thing is that none of those jerks realise how lucky they are! Because at the end there is nothing that sucks more than feeling all alone nomather how many people are around.

06/10/2010

M.Kupruks.

Where is my mind?

I feel permanently fucked.
Feel pressure in my chest towards the heart...I am fucki'n dying.
But hey I brought this up on myself.
I probably will just stroke out or something...
But im glad of the time thats been given to me.
Or maybe it's something else and i am not dying?
Whatever gives me something to fear and realise my life at last,
 understand what have I done wrong, but it's just bullshit, who gives a fuck.
Coz now that I think about it I dont regret shit! I had a great run and it was fun! Ha ha yee! Seen good times seen bad ones, seen others have good and bad ones, and always fuckin sail through like true pirates, by the way it's Dans birthday today foo! yee, fuck it im off to Harrogate now and have a good time on his 18th birthday and try not to stroke out and shit! xD Enjoy your life Motherfucker's!! And dont forget to
BUST A MOVE...xD
"And you know this man!" (Smokey)
"You got knocked the fuck out maaan!!!"(Smokey)

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