11/07/2009 Guardian, atradu.

Šis bija raxtiits uz solinja Morton-on-Swale.

Im sitting here in Morton-on-Swale thinking of the people I have met in my life and I realised we all are someones guardian angel. How many people have you met that mean alot to you?
Have you ever been taken away from them?
I have and for the second time it makes me realise that "lifes just a blast its movin really fast, you better stay on top or it will kick you in the ass."
Sometimes you just have to hear a person out. I hung out with a guy I dont know that well and we just talked about shit all around and I helped him by just listening. And there have been other people in my life, you pick them up to let them go the people you have been through so much shit...people change. But remember You get up before you get down and only then strike your self in the ground, and my point......is that I have one.
People grow the way they have been raised or are just victims of circumstance, im talking about neighbourhoods you live in and therefor you do things you never would want to do but you are forced.
I have been close to people and been backstabed to others I have been scared to say what I have got to say and walk away. Why? Because im a coward I let circumstance change me, beat me down. Every day is a gift not a circumstance or given right, make the most of it. I have made bad decissions in my life and its brought me here, but I dont regret anything I have done I want to be able to look back at my life and say, I wouldnt change a thing. Lucky for me I have my angels. Do you? I always bealived that my life is an illusion, but than I realised Im not the worst I use to know many people satisfaction denied, people who changed from artisic people toatention seeking things.
I wont judge I dont want to live in yesterday and thats why I wrote this with Sams pen siting on a chair at park in Morton-on-Swale.

So who's guardian angel are you?

ps. If you dont understand dont even bother to ask.

Māris.

Dreams

Weird day, not a positive feelin the evenig, so much on my mind.
So much to do. Havent got the resources to be able.
Just looking down at Snoopy (Dog) or "Dogum" as the kids call him,
and me actually...He just sleeps in his little soft bed thingy with no worries
and that's probably why dogs have uncoditional love for a being.
They are not corrupted by the shit in the real world, or actually fake world.
Concrete jungle of bullshit, living in a eternal system of unnecessary rules and
regulations, Health & Safety etc. What has happened to the world in the past
150 years? wheres the love?

Shit on 'em

 

Fuck everyone today man.

Lets just shit one em. xD

As Time Goes By

Dedicated to Walter.H Ramsey 1921-1977

& Joan Ramsey 1921-2009

Sitting on the bench in Scruton
It's starting to rain.

Sitting here on this bench deticated to two lives, personalities

makes me wonder what did these people do in their lifetime,

what have they seen? How they met each other?

Weird huh? You are here today reading this and next thing

you know you are just a distant memory.

As im overlooking these trees, surely over a 100 years old

They have seen these lives and now im here in the same place

in the present time.

   Before I know I will be 60 walking my dog and reminiscing

about my life. Seen war, death witness to love and hate.

As we climb this mountain of life we eventually will be on our

way back down. I suppose all we need to do is make the

most of our short life, like, im 18 but seems like I was just

5 yesterday, I guess it's right times short.

Anyways im wasting my life writing this, I wish you a great life

and have fun while you're at it, because before long we all will

be a distant memory too.

 

Obvious yet for some...

Just a thought...
Alot of people I see try to prove
and impress everyone around, but why?
Most of them have been role models from the start.
And women that seem insecure 8 or 66 all have a self conscious
teenage girl in them looking for a place to fit in and someone
to understand but most of em are there already just blind to see.
And suckas trying to beat everyone else in eveything trying to prove
something to themselves, to get recognition from someone,
fuck that you evaluate your self because only person you have to
answer to is you. And noone else matters, unless you have a weird ass social,
or psychological problem...but anyways, ya get me right?
The point is, alot of the time the places where we want to be is where we allready are,
we just dont see it yet.
And mostly I hate people that lock down and isolate themselves from life because of incedent of some sort like gettin dumped or anything. saying how everything is shit and drowning in misory, becoming someone else intirely that actually may draw all your friends away because you are being an asshole, th thing is even tho it hurts that's what makes you alive, makes you human and it's actually goddamn beutiful.
Love life and just be a good person that's all anyone can ever ask of you.
Love and you will be loved back.