Stuck in the mud

Wasting my time, dont know where to turn and what to do,
seems like all oportunities iv'e come across have been denied...
I want to do something, something I will remember for the rest of my life,
sick of routine and same shit every motherfucking day in and day out!
I need change and I need it now.
   But what am I to do? Nower das here in the United Kingdom the jobs are
about as hard to find as home "Latvia" and Im not really doing anything... atall.
I truly am stuck in the mud and don't know where to turn, I personally beleave im usually
very good in making decisions when it matters, but I don't see a way, ambitions are too far to reach
and good fortune and law of atraction too amphibios to beleave.
I just want to go home. On the street or just fucking go out and walk to somewhere.
See where I end up, but ofcourse thats rather unrealistic since we all know without such things as money your are absolutely nothing, become the junky, the guy you see on the street every fucking day that passes your life the guy with the long beard riped clothes and smell around most unpleasant, the guy noone gives a shit about, and if lucky you throw him some loose change.
who he is and where he came from noone knows nor cares, but he is a person, he's seen things and something has happened for him to get in this position, AND NO not always fucking alcohol...
what about being fedup, searching for a new begining and failing, being screwed over by someone or just being unlucky... And I bet most of those men and women have more grace and pride than anyone of us living in the machine while quite possibaly the have made the choice to escape "it"
And they dont want help if you take time to talk to these people, they want you to listen, and that is misunderstood alot of the time, these people often come to those positions of their own free choice.
Eventially getting stuck and not being able to get out. "Stuck in the Mud"
I dont know what ive just written but whatever im just confused of where to take my life from here on and how to keep myself moving through this neverending judgement and hopelesness around,
this world needs a lift or an end. There only two way to go move on or stay where you are, and we all are in shit, news are always bad news...there is no more good news or if there is its always overpowered by bad news, we have youth killing junkies for fun because noone will miss them..wtf?!
Do they even care? The man murdered was 61...imagine the stories this man could tell you things hes seen over the years. Fucking racists and other shit like that, why? Im not like that. Why do people hate on someone that bad? Why would you hate in such way on anyone?
Too many people now are jsut brainwashed fucking cunts!
I wanna step out of this box of lies! And only way I know how will destroy my life as such, but whats the point if theres no progress? Im just tired. Fuck it! We will never find an answer to this, so I guess we must live, live on and stick by our loved ones think of our good memories and work for a future, stick with your friends for support and love, and go through life together with someone who cares with you and once those loved ones start to fade one by one, you should not fear doing so too.
everyone has their time, aslong as you have someone to love you have a reson to be here.

And I shall leave it at this so this is going out to my family my dad that kept me on my toes and made me the man I am today or partially anyway...My mother evercaring and selfless, my sister in many ways my soulmate the person who has alwas been behind me right or wrong and let me understand alot of what I thought I knew and probably the greatest influence on me as a person, to all my friends that have been a great part of my life and I wouldnt trade moments with all of you for anything in this or any other world, good or bad it's all posible stories I will posibally tell in the future to some youth who will look at me as the old crazy man and think of me as a peace of shit. Thats how these people feel and well I just wanted to say we all need more love in this fucked up world, but hay whatever people dont give a fuck.. 75% of people that will read this dont give a fuck so to those aprox 75%

I wish you a big FUCK YOU! and have a nice day.

for now goodbye. MK.

Enjoy the song.